Sunday morning was tough, as was the rest of the day. But, shit like that will happen. It's not like shopping Amazon with 1 click shopping. It takes time, patience, hard work, conviction, dedication and self-respect, and sometimes things do not go as planned. But it was just a glitch. A small setback. Part of the learning curve. I got over it.
Since making the independent conscious decision to get it togther and move forward, I have been amazed at the clairity of my mind. I can think about things without the lag of brain fog. I can see things clear and crisp, instead of blurry. I am not as moody (I've always veen moody to some degree), and feel humor and love much brighter than I have in a long long time.
I am finding ways to push through pain and refocus it. I'm contemplating exploring Buddhism a bit more, and think I may find, at the least, some ideas on meditation and relaxation. Maybe more things to provide sone direction in how to overcome and (really live) with hardship.
I'm excited for what is next. Snowshoeing, skiing, ice climbing., ledding with my girls, and even flirted with the idea of running, or at least jogging again. I really miss running!!!😟
The greatest part is truely reconnecting with my wife and girls. They tolerated my zoned out days, but I think we all lost out on a lot of love, playing, learning, sharing and bonding. Which was ultimately the motivation required to redirect me and get me on course and in the right direction.
Look out life, I'm on my way back, yee-haw!!!